It’s been a while. For that I truly apologize I have missed you all so much. First there were computer issues, and then there was not much to share but a monsoon of sadness. I was writing but I don’t always want to be the downer writer sharing her sad news so I took a break.
It’s good to be back on the up side of things to not have a negative view or a sad heart. Though the sorrow may last through the night ( or a bit longer) JOY does come in the morning. That is easier said that done, believe me if you ” Only Knew” , but believe me with faith & patience JOY or whatever it is your waiting on will come.
That is really what was on my heart to write about today PATIENCE. Our society lacks patience. We live in a world where all of our answers are found with the few clicks of a button. Our relationships are so shallow or one-sided that either we are the one always holding the bag, or someone is holding the bag for us. What really got me thinking about patience was such a simple thing. I saw a picture of a friends baby and he had on Pj’s that were monogrammed with his initials and name. Loved it so I asked the friend who did that or where I could order Pj’s similar ? The answer was that her sister did it with her sewing machine. That led me to thinking well, I am pulling out my sewing machine and going to put some monograms on my kiddos and nieces clothes, and away we went.
At first I could not even find the pedal to my machine, once found I then realized the owner’s manual was no where insight. I remembered a little it couldn’t be that hard. Turned out I really needed that manual. Online I went to order another one, when I realized that in an instant online is the manual for just about anything.
Reading the online manual I attempted to stitch out the names of my littles not knowing I needed a hoop and stabilizer . This was becoming clear, that I was not going to grab so Pj’s and whip out perfectly monogrammed items. I decided to take a trip to the sewing store. There I learned that my machine was capable of doing only very small letters and that I could try free-handed satin stitching on my machine. That did not go so well. At the store they showed me their version of a beginners machine ( = to a down payment on a new vehicle) and so complicated that it needed thousand dollar software to run it , no thank you . I came home that night thinking by hand was going to be the best way to get this done. so I searched online for how to hand embroider names. Up popped an ad from Wal-Mart for a very affordable machine that claimed to do all that I desired to do. I did a little research finding out it was a well rated machine. They had it in stock I was so excited to go pick it up. By evening end I would be embroidering away.
Well NOT QUITE, by evening end I had my arms in air declaring there was something wrong with this machine. It took a good week to figure out just the basics, at one point it was about to get boxed back up and returned for embroidery floss a hoop and that would be the end of it when I YouTube the machine the issue I was having was solved in one simple step that I had missed. One little string out-of-place made each design look badly. finally we were on a roll, or something close to it. Today I sewed a onsie for MJ together ,totally , monogrammed the thing front and back together. every time there is a new task I am learning something new. This whole process has taken a lot of patience and I have gladly given it because I know the end product will be great.
It made me start to think about the patience that God has for us. Each of us is like one of those machines capable of doing amazing things if set up properly. The problem is that many of us never allow God to set us up properly. We try to go around things or do them in our own ability when if we would just be patient to what God has for us something good is going to come out of us , guaranteed. When we set up properly by studying the Word, spending time in prayer and living our lives for Jesus that is a successful thread of our machine – ready to stitch out a beautiful pattern. Or do we have only a short-term reverence for God. We show up to church , sing a song, shout a hallelujah and think we are all set. then 5 minutes out the door we are back biting and complain that God has not given you the answers to what you were searching Him for when you went for prayer and Monday is approaching. Bad stitches ahead , and probably a broken needle and nice mess to untangle. this little machine has taught me a lot about patience let me tell ya.
I find myself everyday going back to the sewing machine no matter how bad the night before ended. Picking up what I was working on and going to try again to carry out my goal. It made me think a lot about how we spend our time. I can find time to sew for two hours out of the day, but have and excuse why I can’t ready and study the word or part for a half an hour. I could pray and sew if I really wanted to. We all have things in our lives that we give precedence to as opposed to serving God. Why is it that we are OK with giving God are seconds and then we wonder why things don’t work out our way or why we are still waiting for the manifestation of what we are believing God for. Yet God still has patience for us. What a loving God we serve it make me so thankful for Him just when I think about it.
Today as I write I am on the way home from a conference in Detroit. Let me tell you I could have used a million reasons why I could be excused from going to the Word of Faith meetings. Something inside me knew that we needed to put whatever it was to the side and go. We needed this Word ! What will it take in people lives to make them say thats it no more excuses I’m in? We all have time and patience for so much in our lives but when it comes to serving God we put a time constraint on Him that is unreasonable. We can make it to the gym, get in that round of golf, get are hair and nails done, take our kids to dance or swim lessons, but we can’t find time to serve God anywhere ? Yet God is still patient with us. When will have patience for Him ?
I can only ask you what I am asking myself. I will be the first to admit that I am not innocent to what I write of. I think waiting on God for 6 weeks is a tremendous accomplishment, and that the answers I am seeking are going to be coming fedex with a hand tied bow. WRONG. If I have learned one thing this week it is that putting life on hold, putting serving God on hold for anything is the biggest mistake we can make. Yes I understand sometimes we go through things where we HAVE to put ourselves on hold for a bit. But don’t let your for a bit turn into a whole season, be eager to jump back into all that God has for you. Be eager to let Him set you up properly. Figuring it out on your own is a time wasting tactic. Trust me, I know this when it comes to both things in the natural and the supernatural. I go back to the example of my sewing machine. Let me tell you that if I had read the directions on how to thread the machine, ( as opposed to assuming it was the same as all other sewing machines) I would have saved five days of banging my head on my hands wondering why my stitches were not coming out right. It was so simple and I missed it. Thats exactly how many things in life are, so simple – yet we miss them because we are not where we are supposed to be.
I am glad that I did not allow all the excuses I could have used keep me from going to Detroit. I am thankful for the time that I was able to have in the Word . It was life changing, it lit a fire underneath me, a much needed one. I am tired of the same old same old, I am ready for new things! As we get ready for July and our confrence at NCF.WNY I hope that you have a desire to step up. To knock the dust off of your shoes and step up to a place where you can be used . And not only be used take the time now to say Those days God and my church are going to come first. That is one thing I found so exciting about being at Word of Faith. They were all so excited about the conference . It was so cool they were using social cam to talk about their excitement and making short videos telling their friends to be there it was awesome just to feel their excitement. It excited me. I hope I bring home a bit of my excitement and it catches with all of y’all.
So in closing I have to say ” Thank You Lord for all of the patience you have for me, without your loving kindness I have no idea where I would be” I hope you can say the same. And then knock the dust off your feet and lets start moving to all the great things that are in store for us. I don’t know about you but being an observer is not as exciting as being a part of something. Now is your chance to be a part of something big. I know God has big things in store for NCF and these up coming meetings. I hope you step out of your box and ask where can I be used. Do it I promise you wont be sorry !
As always know that you are loved. I believe goodness and mercy follow you everywhere you go and you are surrounded by favor.
For more information about the upcoming Empowered meetings at New Creation Fellowship, please check out NCFWNY.org. Believe me you don’t want to miss them.